Sunday, August 23, 2015

Time passes~

I think of it often, desire to be doing it and crave the moment I can sit down to post on my blog. I miss it and wish so much it was easier to keep up. 

It has been months and there is no way I can sum up the entire summer in one post. We have had a roller coaster of a summer, but not really in a bad way. Things have been and crazy, but wonderful. 

We bowed to the need of continuing foster care. I was so worried about my kids and their hearts, but when we really dug down deep, they were the ones who wanted to keep fostering. I will always want to foster and if that is God's first will for our family, I will never stop. 

At this moment we have 5 foster kiddos in our home. 

Bubba Bear is 6. He is a BIG boy, but very sweet and sensitive. He has spent his life caring for his younger siblings and has a hard time adhering to authority, since he is pretty much been his own boss. He will be starting 1st grade with Lexi in a few days. He started by calling me ma'am and is now calling me mom, which is super endearing coming from an older child. 

Drealicious is the SWEETEST, most well behaved foster child I have EVER EVER had. She is 5 years old and has had such a rough start to life. Coming from a different foster home with horrible, numerous allegations that she has just blown out of the water as untrue. She lights up our entire home, and has us laughing so hard at times. She is so silly and such a good fit for our laid back home. 

Iggy is 3 and is Bubba's sister. You know those painted china dolls? That's what her face looks like...its perfection. She came to us pretty sick. With MRSA and lice, its been an uphill battle, but i'm so glad she is here with us. She has the tiniest little voice and really loves to help and listen. Very happy to have her in my home. 

Of course we still have our baby Sweet Cheeks. I really can't stand how much I love her. I love all my kiddos, but there is this deep "i love you so much it hurts" feeling with her. She just had her 1st birthday and is on the verge of walking. She has started saying ma-ma and da-da and K-K, for Kayci. She pretty much loves Kayci the most out of all of us. When Kayci is here, she does her hair and nails. She carts her around everywhere she goes, and Sweet Cheeks gets quite offended if Kayci walks by without acknowledging her. I pray this little girl will always be apart of our lives. 

Then we have our little "Nae Nae". He is 9 months, but looks like he's 30. He has a big boy face with this tiny little body. He belongs with Bubba and Iggy. He is very behind and working on sitting up, and rolling over. I see big things for his future now that he is catching up. He is definitely the snuggle bug of the home right now and I will eat every minute of that up. 

Our kids grew a ton this summer, physically and emotionally. School will start next week and I can't believe how big they are. 

Ali will be a Junior this year! She is returning back to public school and is very excited about her class opportunities this year. She continues to pursue her desire to be an Architect and will be taking Design based classes this year. She is working towards her drivers licence so she can park her bike for good. She got a job at the Outback this summer and has worked most of the summer. She loves being a host and can't wait until she is old enough to serve. We are 3 days away from her 1 year anniversary of being a Hausmann. It really is like she has always been here:) I'm so happy to be her mom. 

Kayci will be a 4th grader. She hit double digits this summer by turning 10 years old. Wasn't she just this tiny little 2 year old calling me Pom Pom and teaching what it's like to be a mom? Now she is 10 and the sass has begun. She really has her dad's sarcasm and cracks up the entire family the majority of the day. She requested to move to our home this summer and that transition will be in progress possibly through-out the next couple of months. It is hard for all parties to make a change after things being a certain way for 8 years. She is such a happy, good girl that either way she will grow up to be amazing. I have had the opportunity to really connect with her mom over the summer and I am blessed to be growing that friendship. Not only for kayci, which is how it started out to be, but for us. For me it's becoming more than just for Kayci, it's an actual friendship. God is so good in our lives. 

Oh my Lexi Lou! I can't believe she is starting 1st grade. My baby, my mini me growing way to fast. She has begged me every day this summer to return to school, she loves it so much. She had herself convinced that she didn't have a brain over the summer and she must return to school to get her 1st grade brain. She has all her stuff set out and is practically counting the hours. Lexi's vocabulary has majorly grown over the summer, and the darnedest things come out of her mouth. I love her bubbly, spontaneous personality. She is truly liked by everyone and I feel we may have a class clown in motion...only time will tell. 

He has finally hit the time for Kindergarten. Silas has needed kindergarten since he was 3. His brain is on overload trying to figure out everything. He will be a little bored I think since he can already write, spell, read, count and memorize. He needs the Social interaction bad since he is the only brother with 4 sisters:) He is such a gentleman and I love how smart he is growing. He loved playing soccer this summer and will be playing flag football this fall. I can't believe just the other day he was walking into my home at 2 years old and now he is starting school. Time really does fly when you are having fun. 

Our little Brooklynn, this sweet pixie is going into full time preschool in a couple weeks. She is still the tiniest of the bunch and still working on putting fat on her bones, but she has really come into her personality. She is spunky and sassy, so don't you dare cross her the wrong way. My favorite thing about Brook is her intuition. She knows just the right time to come hug me or tell me she loves me. She adheres very much to people's emotional sense. I am so excited to see how she grows this year, being away from mommy and meeting new people. She also played soccer this summer and was eaten alive. I think gymnastics is definitely the place for her. 

Joel and I just celebrated 8 years of marriage. I can not believe we have been married that long. I love it. I love him. We are in an amazing time of our lives and enjoying every minute of it. God has been so good to us and our family. I couldn't ask for a better man, father and provider for our family. 

I will do the best I can to keep you updated through-out the school year. It will be much easier with 8 kids in some school like activity during the day. I just might have time to post daily...HAHAHHAA, ya right! 

Until the next time its quiet and I am alone...

Saturday, April 18, 2015


Lexis and I were driving down one of our main streets yesterday and she pointed out her window asking "What are those mommy?"

"Sprinklers?" I questioned.

"No, those stones!"

"Ohhhh those are headstones for graves honey."

"For what??" 

(It takes a right moment in a child's life to explain a cemetery)

"Well Lex, that is where dead people are buried." I mean really, what else do you say.

Lexi asked "Old people mom?"

"Old and young Lexi. You don't always die when you are old. Sometimes kids die too. Like if they are sick or playing in the street, or if God just feels it's their time to come live with Him" 

"Some people when they are bad, they go...down to somewhere. Right mom?"

(It takes a right moment in a child's life to explain not only Heaven, but Hell as well)

I looked over at my daughter, with a confused yet engaged look on her face. It was time!

"Lexi, you know that Jesus was born, died on the cross and rose again. He did that for all of our sins. God sent His only Son to die on the cross so we could be saved and live with Him in Heaven some day. Heaven is a beautiful place with mansions and streets of gold. It is a place where the children of God will live and sing praises to Jesus forever. When Jesus died on the cross He asked us to believe in Him, and to ask Him into our hearts and to trust Him. When people disobey what God asked of them and they do not believe in Him, they don't get to go to Heaven...instead they go to Hell when they die. That is their consequence for not believing in Christ."

Wide eyed Lexi asked "What is Hell mom?"

"Hell is a lake of fire, where you will never burn up but you will live eternity there."

*Gasp* "I don't want to go to Hell. I do believe in God I do!"

The conversation kinda ended there...with just bits and pieces more of chit chat. 

Later that night, Lexi was asked to sit on her bed and just rest. 

(That usually means she watches TV or colors or reads)

After I got all the other kiddos to bed, Lexi came out to snuggle. 

"Did you watch tv?' I asked


"Color? Read?"


"Well what did you do?"

"Mom! I prayed to God and asked that Jesus live in my heart. I asked Him to live in Heaven with Him and you and Omama. And He said YES, He would live in my heart forever. I asked Him to help me make good decisions too and to make right choices. I will not ever live in that pond of fire!!"

TEARS for Joel and I as we heard our little girl accept Jesus as her personal Saviour!!!

She followed it all up with letting us know she was going to tell her teacher about God, because she couldn't believe that Mrs. Well's hadn't taught the class about asking God to live in their hearts. She also can't wait to worship God in big church and was exited to sit her little sister on the edge of the bed this morning and make sure she understood that she too would need to ask Jesus into her heart someday. What a little Evangelist we have!! 

I'm so proud of her understand for Christ and am so excited to see what He has planned for her.
Thank you God for this special gift!! She is precious!!! 

Monday, April 6, 2015

Our Season of Change~

So I know, Its been over 3 months since my last post. But SERIOUSLY...I've had 10-11 kids since that time. 24/7 care for 11 children can cause a slight disarray to everything else in your personal life. I miss it...I miss my blog. Its something I think of constantly.  I need to make it a habit to find time to at least update, but tiredness overcomes me most nights around 7:15. 

No more excuses...I promise! 

Life is changing completely for us.

Here's my realization and although its more than many people my age...foster care is all I have to show for my life. Its all that defines me. 28 years old and I've mothered over 100 that really all I want to be credited for? I don't! Its great, yes! Many honor, bless and thank me for my contribution to our community, but it doesn't seem to be enough in my mind. I want more for me...for my husband...for my kids.

First and strongest change: My Spiritual Worship to God!!

I know making excuses for bible reading, prayer and church is highly looked down upon, but more than you can ever imagine these children have stunted my growth in all of the above. Behaviors, Fears, Diseases, and Schedules have put our family out of sync with our faith for a very long time. I'm done, its over. I need my Jesus. I need my church. I need my bible. I need my kids to enjoy God and thrive in faith for their lives. We have made the steps to get to church and the experience has been beautiful, transforming and uplifting. I will never forget the feeling I had being back in church after years of stumbling. My God has forgiven me and the reunion is sweet. Best change in my heart and mind...not only for me but for my babies! More of God...less of Me!! Excitement has been put back into my heart. 

Second change:  Foster Care

 We are s..l..o..w..l..y transitioning out of foster care. I say slowly because I seem to keep saying yes. My addiction is children and I love it. But, for the sanity of my family we have to back down a little bit if not all together.  We just spent our very first weekend EVER with just our little Hausmanns. It was peacefully amazing. The kids were different, less reserved and free to be themselves. I didn't have to divide my attention or treat my children different from another. I loved it. They loved it. We didn't want it to end.
 I want my children to be loving, selfless, giving individuals. I expected fostering other needy children would create that in them. I fully believe at this time, it is doing the opposite. They are tired of the sharing, the giving, the running, the lack of time they get individually. I have expected my little children to behave like adults and do things some adults could never do. We have a full fledged life with 5 children.  I only have 2 more years with my teenager, Ali. I already missed out on 14 years of her life...I don't want to blow past the rest of her time in our home as a child under our roof. I want her to learn how to be a good wife and mother. How to keep a house, how to keep herself and how to value her self worth. I want...yes I said it! I WANT to spend time with this sweet and sassy teenage girl!

 Once a month (during the school year) is the only time we get to spend with our first Hausmann Princess, Kayci. It goes by so fast and is usually chaotic and challenging. She needs us so desperately at this time in her life. Almost 10 yet so fragile and begging for normalcy.  Summer is right around the corner, and she will have our full attention...that I have promised her!

 I blinked and my baby is 6. My amazing, God given miracle just turned six and the scary part about that is...I don't remember what we did. I don't remember as much as I really want to over the last 6 years. Memories I have, but deep seeded remembrance on what we have done with our Lexi time the last six years is cloudy. I want to forever remember the next 6. She is smart and continually asking what, why and how. I don't want to tell her "later" anymore. I want to make sure I am the one answering her questions. Please baby girl, don't go elsewhere...I will sit and tell you anything you want to know. 

 My son, my boy, my little man Silas...the only stud in the middle of all these drama queens. He needs his mom and dad to fully be able to guide him through his mental imbalance in life. His social awkwardness only fumes with other children in the home. His uncertainty is heightened when change happens. I need to make sure I am here for process with him change and help him overcome his fear of the unknown. Just because he became a Hausmann did not mean he needed me any less. 

The baby of the family, Brooklynn. And that is exactly what she is...little miss know it all, controlling the whole herd with her perfect vocabulary. She is spunky in all the right ways, yet still so fearful of leaving the house or anyone new coming into the house. She still won't hardly leave my side and can't seem to understand why her mind is overloaded during these times. We have had success in many avenues, but her lack of reasoning is slowly growing. Only a couple years away from school, I need to make sure she knows she is fully loved and protected no matter the feelings she may have.

 I love these little children and they are my children...The children God has so graciously given me the opportunity to raise. They are my job, my reward and my heart. I will not fail them caring for someone else's child. 

Third Change: School

With quieting down on the foster care front and with the kids so close to all being in school, I have a little time to do something for me that will one day help my family. As of last week, I became a college student. I'm so crazy anxious as I start my first class tomorrow. I can't believe I have taken this step, but I'm already so proud of my accomplishment. My amazing husband is standing right by my side as I complete more in my life. I am majoring in Applied Behavior Science. I'm not 100% sure what career path I will take once the kids are in school, but I will definitely be helping the children in our community. 

I'm amazed the path is leading my family down. I am humbled by His blessings everyday. I believe He has a great future planned for the Hausmann Family and I am open, ready and willing to follow His footsteps. 

Sweet Sweet peace and love this evening! Thankful for it all:)

Friday, January 9, 2015

Happy 2015~

Ok, seriously!! Sometimes I look at the calendar and realize OH MY WORD....its January 9th 2015!!! Where has time gone? My days are full and busy and happy!! I so meant to write another blog post before today, but spending time with these kids is...well, time flies when you're having fun. 

Christmas was amazing!! Christmas break...even better. I was sad to see them go back to school on Monday and I cannot wait for summer. I'm sorry, I'm one of those parents that loves spending time with these crazy goofs. We have played bored games, dance video games, hide and go seek in the dark (which I win by the way, because who knows this house the best?...the lady who cleans it), we have been sledding, movie watching and craft making:) I keep forgetting to take pictures...I am just back into the prime of my life. Joel and I are just having fun with our kids and investing into the lives of the three we have right now. 

I did a couple of projects this break. Kayci and Ali's room has just been overrun with their STUFF! Ali works on her paintings and Kayci her music (kayci got her very own keyboard for Christmas) I have the two girls with the most stuff in a room together and it was
C-L-U-T-T-E-R-E-D!!!! So I built kayci a bed...yep a bed!!! Ali and I did it in an afternoon and I'll admit...I'm pretty proud of myself:) They now have room for all their stuff, more shelving and Kayci has a reading nook under her bed:)

I also HAD to do something about the entry way. 8 kids + Winter= 16 boots, 8 coats, 16 gloves, 8 hats etc...the list goes on and on! Our little entry way was 
OUT OF CONTROL!!! So we have this huge unused hallway downstairs so I made it our "mud room". We brightened it up and made it accessible for all outer wear and school material:) I plan on building some benches on the other side and some shelves above the hooks. Its really been great!!

School was back in motion this week, but the snow still crazy dangerous. We have received over 18 inches of snow and as of last night our city was declared a state of emergency. Kayci is still here because the roads have been closed and it is way to dangerous to drive. 

We are taking a snow day today. Kids are still in Pjs and all 4 tvs are running different things...Xbox, cartoons, little kids shows and of course big girl shows. We will probably go out in the snow soon:)

The big kids and us adults are in a challenge together. The little kids are apart of it but not in the way us older ones are. We are challenging each other to eat healthy and be active. We are starting to take the kids to the YMCA here in town and plan on getting in shape before summer. Us, along with our 4 oldest have had some unhealthy lifestyles and we are changing that. We started Monday with our food journals and the kids have done AMAZING!! We will weigh in on Saturday mornings since that is their "cheat" day:) The little kids get a sticker when they eat what mommy puts in front of them...sometimes that is really scary to try. Other than a couple that didn't like beans, everyone has eaten well. 

The three kiddos we have are still gonna be here awhile. They are still settling in, but have made some wonderful attachments to our home and hearts. Joel and I really really love these kids! God is amazing when he places kids in our home, matching them perfectly to our personalities and the personalities of our kids. They just don't argue or fight or get feelings hurt...everyone likes each other. That's hard to do even with 8 biological kids. Its very peaceful in the house right now...but I'm kinda itching to add a few more. Its getting "boring" for me during the day when all the kids are at school. I can't just sit and read a book...I need to be moving, hmmm wonder where Lexi gets it:) 

I'm missing my mother terribly. We have been battling a couple of hardships (cause life isn't all roses). Joel and I are believing God in many things, but during these times I just miss my mother!! She is the one person that lets me talk and talk and talk and be silly and crazy and still supports me. Talking on the phone, face timing, emailing...its not the same. I miss her!! Her presence, her help, her good ideas, her reading to the kids, her crying over biggest loser. God is blessing them so much in Ireland, but I can't wait to see her again. Love you mom!!

Here's whats on my mind...I'm almost 30! 2 years and 22 days away from 30! I don't even consider myself that mature yet. I feel like I have accomplished a lot for my age and still want to do more...but to mentally consider myself 30, just seems...weird! 

Thanks for stopping by today! I love sharing our amazing realistic life with all of you! Have a wonderful weekend and hopefully it won't take me so long to post again:)